You’re not okay.
Yet you kept on fooling yourself that you are.
You fake that smile without knowing your eyes show nothing but pure sorrow.
You’re in denial of it, because you don’t want people to know you’re in the brink of falling.
You post that selfie in social media to let your followers know that you’re okay.
But little did they know that behind that filter, your naked face apparently shows that you’re on the process of healing.
It’s not even a scar yet.
It’s a fresh wound, it’s still bleeding.
Due to that heartbreak,
due to that love that’s unrequited,
due to the dream that seems so far away,
due to that person who caused you pain,
due to the quarter life or mid life crisis you’re experiencing,
due to being unhappy with your job,
due to not knowing what you want,
due to the envy you feel towards others,
due to the depression you’re going through right now
It’s torturing you but when someone asked you a how-are-you, you always answer them with the I’m-okay lie.
You’re not okay and you even thought about leaving the town or your country and start anew elsewhere.
But you didn’t know where to start and you don’t even have the courage to commence a plan of escape.
To escape from reality, from the inevitable adult problems that is so hard to get rif off.
But hey, listen to me.
Why don’t you acknowledge the fact that you’re depressed about something?
Embrace the fact that your skin is wounded upto the deepest layer of your soul.
You are bound to get hurt—whether you like it or not.
Feel it with every nerve you’ve got so you get to know better the kind of pain you’re going through.
Once you find the root of it, pull it out like weeds that need to get cut off, so it won’t fester in other parts of you.
Because you are beautiful and a one single cause of being not okay should never define you.
This time, I hope you learn how to confide in your best friend or whoever it is that you fully trust, be vulnerable with them and share them your inner thoughts, tell them the truth that you’re not okay.
Go to your room or to church or to your favorite place and cry it out loud, release all the tears your eyes are capable of bursting.
Or better yet, write it down. Everything.
You will see a massive change in you once you start being honest with yourself.
Remember, it’s okay to not be okay as long as you’re not in denial of it so you can find a solution for it.
You’re not okay today, but I promise you, as clichéd as it may seem, this too shall pass.
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