Love and Loss, Truth and the End

“If you really love me, why would you leave me?” He said, facing away from her, evading the moment where he should be asking this whilst looking straight to her eyes, but he didn’t have the courage—he was frightened to see an unspoken truth that lies beneath her big brown eyes, he was scared to find out that maybe, she just simply fell out of love for him.

Silence kicks in, it was deafening. The kind that makes your heart throb a little faster than the ordinary beat, the kind that gives you no hope to search for a validated line that could satisfy the boy’s muddled mind.

The girl started to speak after a moment,

“Baby…” she said, with her voice shaking like a shivering body of a homeless girl on a sad winter night. She stared at him, waiting to meet his eyes, but she failed. She held his hand with her right and put the other to his chin, gently forcing his face to tilt to one side, to face her, so she can have his eyes as a witness, as she would speaking nothing but the truth at 3:30 in the morning. She took a deep breath to release the tension and fear she has inside and said,

“I love you so much. It breaks my heart to hear you question the love I have for you because I reckon you don’t even know the real depth of it. Please don’t ever think that what I’ve said to you, what I have showed you, were all a complete lie. Because I have always been true to you, I’ve loved you more than you know. In fact, I’ve given so much of me. I’ve even devoted my entire life into the pursuit of our growth as partners. But now when I look at myself, all I see is a restless woman who got so drained for giving too much of her it has exhausted every part of her being. As I look into your troubled eyes, I asked myself, can I still fight for this? I want to give up now because I think I don’t have any energy left. I got so tired, I’m sorry but this is true. They say, if you love someone, you should never feel tired. I say, I loved someone so much I came to this point right now that nothing is left, I spent too much effort on this, done everything I could to make you happy, but it has always been me, and guess I’m still not enough for you. And for two years, I haven’t felt that security. Not even a single plan has been laid out in front me.”

She tried to stay as composed as she could, trying to hold back them tears from falling. After speaking of truth, she felt that sense of relief. She’s aware that he might not understand it right away, but telling the truth has set her free, from the constant anxiety she has felt for holding on to something she wasn’t sure of, just because she couldn’t feel the same level of commitment she has for their story to work.

What if he doesn’t accept this and asked for a one more chance? Should the girl give this boy another shot?

#fiction

27 Comments

  1. Conor says:

    Give him a chance :p

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Lol I’m gonna tell her of your advice 😉 thanks! Haha

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      1. Conor says:

        And tell him too. He owes me one!

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Haha I’ll try. 😝 But i will post his response to the girl’s statement tomorrow. I should not be biased on the girl’s side. Haha

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Aw thank you!

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  2. Ankit Thapa says:

    I always enjoy reading your fiction. Nice one yet again Rae. And yes I think she should give him another shot.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      You think so? I’ll tell her lol

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  3. Generally I find a person’s first instinct is best for them. There are times when this is wrong but she should do what’s best for her. Good piece and the questions at the end made me really think about it. Well done.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Hi Lucas! You have a good point right there. I’m a believer of gut feel and first instict too but lately I’ve been misled with it haha. Thank you anyway for appreciating this piece. ☺️

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  4. Nope. No chances for him. Life is not THAT easy, boys haha

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Hahaha 🤣 right right! Will tell her 😉 haha

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  5. George F. says:

    You are an emotional cauldron exploding onto the page. I loved this one! And, uh, no more chances for this poor guy. This relationship is over. No energy left. He sounds like the emotional vampire type that will just keep draining your blood.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      George! Sorry for being too emo here lolll. Yea guess he’s more emotional than the girl haha

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      1. George F. says:

        You’re not TOO emotional…I love that way you express it ALL…

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Thanks George!! Like alwaaays lol

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  6. Jokerswild says:

    Sometimes you love so hard that you exhaust yourself and if you spend your time making someone happy but you’re not, what’s the point? Love has to exist on both parts and if the other party isn’t doing their part, it isn’t an equal love. She should give him a chance, give him a chance to find someone that can love him.🌹. That way she can have a chance to be and find happiness too.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Hey Roy! I love your answer. Just exactly what I wanted to hear. Oops 😅🙊 Thanks for taking the time to comment your thoughts on this. Love should definitely be equal, I agree.

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      1. Jokerswild says:

        No problem lovely, love your post and I love commenting on such thought provoking post. You are a charm.🙂

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Aw that’s sweet thank you ☺️

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      3. Jokerswild says:

        You’re so welcome😊🌹

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  7. ~Curiosity~ says:

    You are such a talented writer. Couldn’t stop reading!:)

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Aw that’s so sweet of you. Thank you so much ♥️

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  8. After 2 years – probably not. You really cannot change who people are. Perhaps, the Universe has a better plan and person for her. That is a hard thing to accept and believe. Letting go is very hard, but so often the best decision!!
    xoxox 😘💕😊🌹🌹✨

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