A surreal win

Why am I here?

Why did I decide to be alone when the wind and the trees and the moon wants to come along?

They were here to be of help—so i can somehow breathe and witness a ray of light.

But I don’t want them in this fight.

My body craves for the full bloom of darkness inside.

You know why I like to endure this moment of total black?

So I get to teach myself to never fear the dark.

To feel each sting the sharp objects bring,

to embrace the pain that in my bones have remained.

I never hated the idea of hurting,

’cause they push me to be growing

to a woman of strength, I’m becoming..

a woman of resilience and grit.

I need to be all by myself—

so I get to converse with them voices within,

to understand the purpose of this storm I’m in,

not bothering no one, not confiding to a friend.

Because in times like this,

I need to crack a code to surpass the test.

And I’m supposed to find that code,

by marrying myself with this sword—

a weapon I can use to “unfear” the unknown,

to destroy the naysayer’s voice,

to never stop believin’ in my soul.

Why am I here?

Because life sometimes sucks yet I have to take it all in.

It’s for the better, it’s a surreal win.

(digital painting credit to the best artist in the world, Arvy)

40 Comments

  1. velvetscreams says:

    Great poem…when you fall,learn to stagger up again

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Hi there! Thank you! That’s so true 💙

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      1. velvetscreams says:

        You are welcome

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  2. George F. says:

    Beautiful poem. “marrying myself with this sword—” sounds like Juliet in Shakespeare…

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Oh yea? I didn’t copy her line, i promise lol. Thanks George 💙

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      1. George F. says:

        You are just naturally poetic. Juliet used a knife, not a sword, so you couldn’t have copied that line. “Oh Happy Dagger. This be thy sheath. There rust, and let me die…”

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Wow thank you, sorry I’m not too knowledgeable about Juliet’s line. You are amazing! Don’t tell me you’ve memorized some of it?

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      3. George F. says:

        And now you and Juliet are one…

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      4. Apple Rae says:

        Aw George!!! You got a new post yet?

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      5. George F. says:

        Trying to get one up tonite…just for you…Akira is still a post or two away…

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      6. Apple Rae says:

        Yeyyy! Looking forward to it. Are we still going to push through with our writing contest?

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      7. Apple Rae says:

        Okkk no worries 😉 I suddenly missed you and your stories!

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      8. George F. says:

        I always look forward to seeing you…and reading you. I just put up a repost tho…

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    2. Apple Rae says:

      Wow thank you, sorry I’m not too knowledgeable about Juliet’s line. You are amazing! Don’t tell me you’ve memorized some of it?

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  3. Jokerswild says:

    You know why I like to endure this moment of total black? I love that question but I love the answer more.❤️. I love this poem, it’s about embracing things so you know how to deal with them when confronted with them again. This poem is a definite win lovely, I read it twice!! This was surreal and a write up to think about. Great job! 🍎💕

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Yes Roy, that’s right. And sometimes we need to be alone to understand ourselves and the situation better. Thank you so much 😁☺️

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      1. Jokerswild says:

        Yes, a little alone time helps us understand ourselves and learn more about ourselves and the situations we face. There is no “I” in team but there is an “M and a E”. We all need some me time.😉. You’re so welcome.😊

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Right! Hehe. Still waiting for your answers for the TMI Tag, Roy 😂

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  4. Ankit Thapa says:

    I had this one poem, it had the similar idea. I forgot the lines, it was sth like this.

    Let nothing go in vain.
    Use every experience to your gain.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Oh yea? I’m sure yours sounds better 😉

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  5. Orvillewrong says:

    Beautifully written i loved it!

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Thank you Orville ☺️

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  6. ~Curiosity~ says:

    Beautiful writing. Such depth! 👍🏼

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Thank you 😉♥️

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  7. Bartek D says:

    That’s some beautiful writing, every time you come up with amazing posts. By the way would you care to join a small challenge if you are bored?

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Thank you Bartek. Sure thing! I like challenges! I’m down ☺️ what’s the challenge about?

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      1. Bartek D says:

        If you want to join than go on my blog and read the last 4 posts they are not long, then pick up where the story ended and do whatever you want with it.

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Hold on let me check

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      3. Apple Rae says:

        I saw it, it sounds really fascinating! I’d love to join in tonight, after my work is done I will definitely link to your post. 🙂

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      4. Bartek D says:

        That’s great, I currently don’t have anyone for part 4 so you can do it it, the length doesn’t matter nor the genre of writing 🙂

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      5. Apple Rae says:

        Ok I’ll do the part 4 then 😌

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  8. emengoyal says:

    wow. ang ganda ng pagkakabigo e. sobrang ganda ng sulat.

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Aw thank you, Miko. May bago ka bang post? Para sumaya naman ako haha

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      1. emengoyal says:

        tungkol lang sa aso ko te apol e. pero ang ganda talaga ng sulat mo. promise grabe gawa ka na libro! 🙂

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      2. Apple Rae says:

        Naku binola mo pa ako haha sige basahin ko yan. Haha. Nagttrain pa ako ng maigi para makapagsulat eventually ng libro 📖 thank you!

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      3. emengoyal says:

        kulangot lang binobola te apple! 🙂 hahaha ogoodluck sa training!!!!!

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      4. Apple Rae says:

        Haha kaw talaga! basahin ko mamaya ung about sa aso mo 😝

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  9. Avni says:

    I’ve nominated you for the sunshine blogger award…🤗

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    1. Apple Rae says:

      Oh wow 😲 thank you! Will check it out as soon as I can. Thanks for the nomination 🤗

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