Too much. Too much of it. Sometimes i feel like I’m going insane. For questioning— the how i feel quite intensely with no proper reasoning. How the outsides quickly mirror the insides, how the dreams manifest in real life, how the symbols contradict only to synchronize in time; and how you never seek for signs but have them knock on your door way too many times.
How you sometimes deny the magic and the fire as it burns you to death and to be rebirthed with its own light. Dying and living—and a loop that is never-ending. The crying to bed at night and the waking up with swollen eyes that feel its aftermath. No, I don’t see it. I don’t see why. But i was given two sides of the coin of life. The duality of which, i have to master in time.
No, i don’t see it. I don’t even get it. But i was given this depth of feels to be felt, and maybe not yet to understand the sudden body signals, the splenic insights, and the ancient whispers of light. No I don’t see it. But the eyes that feel and the body that aches, has always been right.
My name is Apple Rae. A dreamy-eyed Idealist. A passionate writer. A promoter of love in all of its forms. An INFP whose passion for meanings, symbolisms and philosophy align perfectly with the love for poetry and art. Curious about everything—mostly about people and culture; life and death; astrology and consciousness; brain and science; music and video editing and ofcourse, love and dreams. I have a reaaaalllly wide interest but it all boils down to one thing: ART. The art of diving deep into all of these things that fascinate me and being in the flow of creation—with freedom, with ease, with authenticity.
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Hi Chris, thank you. 💖 i saw your interesting comment at Sherrie’s blog. She wrote such powerful, esoteric poem about Gods and i learn by your conversations too.
I somehow keep missing the notices of your posts. How could that be when such powerful words are laid down. We are feeling the cacophony of emotions welling up all around us and in us. We can’t live comfortably when so much discomfort surrounds us. What if we opened our arms wide and said bring it on, I’m taking this sorrow and owning it as true? It is never insanity to feel intensely, it is life at full speed. This is a beautiful expression of that storm that fills us at times.
Apple Rae 
A wonderfully crafted poem that realistically describes the sensitive person with eyes that feel and body that aches.
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Hi Chris, thank you. 💖 i saw your interesting comment at Sherrie’s blog. She wrote such powerful, esoteric poem about Gods and i learn by your conversations too.
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You’re welcome, Apple. 💖
Having been a Philosophy major in University, I love discussing Metaphysics.
There are very few people who enjoy discussing that subject I discovered.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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A great poem!
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I somehow keep missing the notices of your posts. How could that be when such powerful words are laid down. We are feeling the cacophony of emotions welling up all around us and in us. We can’t live comfortably when so much discomfort surrounds us. What if we opened our arms wide and said bring it on, I’m taking this sorrow and owning it as true? It is never insanity to feel intensely, it is life at full speed. This is a beautiful expression of that storm that fills us at times.
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